“I don’t want to belong to any club that would accept me as one of its members.” Groucho Marx
In April 2014, I gained a companion I never asked for and certainly never wanted. I did not want to be a member of this companion’s club. Yet, I had no choice. This club accepted me despite all of my fear and loathing for it. Unfortunately, this companion was brain cancer and I gained a permanent membership to the Big “C” Club.
My cancer companion will remain a constant part of my life, even if I remain “cancer free.” I have a name for my companion – Chester, Chester the Brain Molester. For ease, I’ll just call him Chester.
I did hate Chester. He changed my life forever. He turned my world upside down. He infected me. He took away so much, not just from me, but from everyone who loves and cares for me. I will never be the same person I was before Chester came around.
Yet, Chester will always be my companion, whether I like it or not. So, I’ll just have to live with him. I’ll have to accept him.
Hating Chester truely a waste of my time and valuable energy. Resentment and anger towards him will only hurt me. I will just have to bury Chester deep down inside, filling my life with love and inner peace.
So, yes. I am forever a member of the Big “C’ Club. I’ll never know why that Club chose me as one of its thousands upon thousands of members. I’ll never know why Chester needed yet another companion. Yet, I am at peace with it now. My strength, my resilience, the love that surrounds me will forever and always be so much more powerful than Chester.